Stay at home mom

So I have been a stay at home mom for FOUR years now. I love it. However, I found that there were parts of working that I loved. Like having a reason to buy something other than jeans and a t-shirt. Or not planning on wearing those cute little jogging suits to take the kids to school, when I never planned on jogging. Don't get me wrong my hands still smell of bleach at least one day a week. (How come you can't wash off that smell for like a day? It is probably toxic.) However, I started helping out a friend one day a week and it has really changed my life. I could never go back to a full time job, but I love this. I have a reason to get dressed in something other than my sweats. I get to talk to real people and not end every other word in -we. I feel like I accomplish tasks. You don't get the same satifaction from cleaning. Why? Because you will have to do the same job 20 more times later. It is never completed permantly. I love having something more than just grocery shopping. Yet, I still get to spend most on my time with my babies. I feel like it is making me a better mom. I have a wonderful life. I have been through a spirtual valley recently and now I feel like I am headed for a very high mountian. I have made some great new friends. I also have a great set of old ones. Bill and I are really getting to be on the same page in several ways. Our old house is in ecscrow. Just things are going so well. God is good. I feel like each and every valley leads me to be more of who God created me to be. Refiners fire... The flames hurt but the end result makes me feel more solid and grounded and useful. I hope the my lessons will make me someone that God can use to help other women in my spot. Lord, mold me and use me. As I take on new shape I am learning to like the person that GOD has made me to be. I did not like the person that I made myself out to be. So I realize this was all over the place, so I will end this way. Thank you Lord!!!!!