Change...

Ok that has been the only constant lately. We have so many open "boxes" right now.
 Too many to get into. So I've have tried to stay focused on the present. I'm a planner by nature, so this is really hard. Any way there are so many unknowns in our future right now I just can't process them all.When I start to think about my life with any one one of these changes I fell very insecure. What will my life look like if I go back to teaching? Who will be my friends? When will I get to hang out with them? How many people will "replace" me? Ugg. Will there be a different job opening somewhere else? Lord, what do you have for me and my family? I'm glad He knows. I will be very happy when he decides to let me in. Really this was a venting post of my frustration. I had a momentary lack of focus on the present. I promise to post some light hearted pics of Daley's birthday tomorrow.

Let me clarify

I thought of girls night because when I was talking to a friend who played bunco she said that is what they did. Sometimes they played bunco, sometimes catch phrase, sometimes nothing. I was in a bunco group last year. I liked playing bunco. However, I'm a talker. And trying to connect with people, count, and switch. It was kinda like speed dating. I just want to hang out! My friend said they still took everyones $10 so they could do something fun! OK so who else is lazy and just want to hang out?????

Girls night club???

Ok two posts in a day. I know what is wrong with me. I've been thinking of doing a monthly girls night thing. Here is my thoughts 1) open to whoever. 2) If you want to be a regular, you sign up to have it a your house one month. 3) Everyone pays $10 a month. That means once a year we all go to Glen Ivy or something and each girl will have $120 saved to pay for the day. 4) If it is at your house, you do the evites, you feed everyone (snacks whatever), and chose the activity. Game night, chick flick, WHATEVER! Just hanging out and having fun. No set structure. 5) Always casual. This could mean sweats, pjs, whatever.
So what do you think? I think I do and invitation on Facebook. I wanted to get some input first.....

What do you want to be when you grow up?

When I was a kid it was either a lawyer or an actress.Truth be told I would jump at the opportunity to be on the big screen or the one in you living room. As many of you know I'm thinking of going back to work. Bill being in construction... do I really need to elaborate? Hey, we always said when times are good there good and when they are bad, well we all know. That's construction! Anywho, I am faced with choices to make. I still need to be a mom and I don't want the kids in daycare. I have been a stay at home, unemployed mom for almost 7 years! So I contemplate what my passions are, what I have done, what does back to school, WHO IS HIRING? So as sit here and pray and wonder, what do I want to be NOW that I have grown up and have the additional responsibilities as a parent? If you still come to visit this neck of my blog woods, please help me pray, not for a job, but for clarity......What do you want to be now that you've grown up?

Update

So I sit here with my Watermelon Jolly Rancher sucker I stole from Will's Valentines it is safe to say I slipped. Not totally. I just gave in to a little sugar. Life has just been too crazy. Trust me I know it is not an excuse. However, between tring to take care of family, extended included and normal duties I'm tring to keep my head above water!!! Oh and because life has been so crazy (side note my mom is doing much better and driving again) Daley has become very defiant. It's not like her at all. She has always been a firecracker but this is different. I have left stores with full carts because she didn't get her popcorn fast enough. She has even picked up hitting. Now mind you this is all stuff she only does with me and her siblings. It is just very exhausting to be continually discipling her. Now she calls me mean mommy! Ugg I really wanted to take them to the movies or something today. However, I just can't reward her bad behavior. So unfair for my other two. Pray for peace in our neck of the woods.....